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All the Things

Things. 

I’m out on my porch, going through things. 

Things that were pulled from my apartment by the cleanup crew after the fire. 

It’s been almost 8 months since my apartment burned down and I’m just now going through some of the things. I’m throwing most of it out, though. If I’d gone through it earlier, I might have been able to save some of it. 

Most of it got wet from the rain the day of the fire, the fire sprinkler, and the DAYS of rain that followed the fire. 

Yet, things were brought to me. And I stored them away. Yes, I went through boxes and bags for DAYS, seeing what I could save and what I had to throw out. And I’m grateful for the friends that helped me during that time. 

But I couldn’t do it all. So I stuck some of it in my new storage unit by my new apartment. 

Now it’s almost 8 months later. 

My apartment called me today because I still have my things in my storage unit over by my old apartment. They said there’s no rush, just to let them know when it’s empty. So I decided today was the day. 

I went down to my new storage unit and opened it up. Inside were 3 bags and 1 laundry basket of things from my old apartment. I moved them to my porch and swept out and bleached that little room so I could move things in there. 

I’m now on my porch going through things. Things that were wet from the fire, covered in ash, and now have mold. Those things are being thrown out today. If I’d cleaned them off and gone through them earlier, I might have been able to save them. I’ve been able to clean and save a few things from today, but not much. 

Yes, they are “just things” – but they’re my things. 

Now my trash. 

Throwing away memories and THINGS. 

I took pictures of some things so I don’t eventually forget them completely. 

It’s now time to move things from my old storage unit to my new one. Those are things that were untouched my my apartment fire. They were in storage, and I am forever grateful for that. 

As I sit on my porch of my 3rd floor apartment in a cute red chair that a dear human bestowed upon me, I am watching a girl carry things. She’s got a trunk full of things and is carrying them up to her apartment. A box, a sombrero, a skateboard – ya know, things. 

And I’m grateful for things. 

Things that remind us of love. And of despair. Things that make us smile. And make us cry. Things. 

After my fire, I was often told “at least you’re safe” and “I’m glad you weren’t hurt” and “things can be replaced” and “at least you get new things” – and that’s nice and well-meaning. 

However, things aren’t just things. I miss my things. 

Yes, I got a new toaster. New pots and pans. New flamingos, a new bed, new couch, new apartment. 

But I still miss my things. 

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Can’t Look Yet


That building back there is the non-burned side of my old apartment building. The side that had smoke and water damage, no fire. I now live on the other side of the apartment complex, but the mailboxes are on the side I used to live on. Sometimes, when I check my mail, I have a desire to go look at my old, roof-gone, burned down apartment. To stand there and cry. I don’t know what else. Just do that. 

I think only 1 or 2 times I actually turned the corner and saw it. But not recently. This is the farthest I’ve gotten in a while. 
I can’t seem to bring myself to turn the corner and see it again. I just can’t look yet. 

I’ve been very well taken care of since my apartment burned down. I’ve even started my own business, and it has blessed my life in many ways. Feel free to shop with me if you so desire!

I know I’ll eventually have to look at it. I’ve got some things in a storage unit over there, that was separate from the apartment. I need to move them to my new storage unit, near my new apartment. But not yet. I just can’t look yet. 

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Dinosaur Jar

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Yep – a dinosaur jar! It is very easy to make, and you can use any color you want!

Here’s how it all started….I went to my friend Emily’s house and we made these:

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She had been collecting jars for SOMETHING, so we bought some dinosaurs and superglue, and went for it! I went for black and she chose gold. I chose to use painter’s tape and just paint part of the jar lid, but she chose to paint the whole thing. After it was all finished, I decided I wished I’d done the whole thing, so I decided I’d just do another one at home. So I did!

Here’s some more details about how to do this…

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Refer to the picture above for the steps….

1. Choose your dinosaur and put super glue on the bottom of each foot! I prefer Loctite Gel Control Super Glue. I conveniently had a bag of animals that I got from my grandma a few years ago! Let it dry for a few hours. I just did it overnight. 

may 0012. Get whatever color of paint you want, and paintbrushes. I used a small and a large one so I could use the small one to get under the dinosaur and in all the crevices, and the large one for the lid part. 

3. Paint your dinosaur and lid! Let it dry for a few hours, I let it dry for a few days, simply because I forgot about it! I put it on top of a small water bottle, because I’d painted the very bottom edge of the lid as well. 

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dino 001You can tell that I kept it by the sink to dry, because it has dried water spots on it! Also, I don’t know how, but some of the paint chipped off…so I just gave it another coat! No water spots, no chips!

4. Use Mod Podge to cover the dinosaur and jar lid with a sealing coat. I used the same large and small paintbrush as before. Let it dry overnight. Again, I let it dry for a few days, simply because I got busy!

5. Put the dry, finished lid on the jar!

6. Fill it with goodness!

Here’s the first one I made, housing vitamins. 

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Here’s the second one I made, much preferred, housing Cadbury Mini Eggs. 

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Ok, let’s be honest. Both jars are filled with dinosaur eggs. 

Emily pointed that out once I showed them to her. She knows everything, and it is fabulous!

Dinosaur eggs in dinosaur jars. 

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